Date:	2005-08-17 21:10
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	chipper

Awww yes ... time to update LJ ... i have finally decided to update my pics on here so they aren't 100 years old ... but anywho ... things for the chelsea life in phoenix are going good ... just been hanging out ... working ... and drinking ... what more could you ask for ... i love my job and i love where i live ... not to mention i got to talk to my beloved WuJin today ... he is back in Korea (for like 10 years) and is teaching english ... and knowing him ... it is ghetto english ... i picturing all of these koreans running around saying "Yo ... I am yellow trash" ah you have to love wuJin but it definetly made my day to hear from him ... and now i am sipping on some soft red oliver wine ... the best ever ... emily brought some home to me ... i think it maybe one of the biggest things that i miss from indiana ... ahhh how nice to sit back and sip on some damn good wine and look out the window at good ol Camelback Mt.... ah timee to pass out ... night night ;)

Date:	2005-07-27 12:14
Subject:	aww yeah the working life
Security:	Public
Mood:	content

well i just got back from lunch ... so far things here at the paper have been kind of slow ... me and one of the guys have been working on a map for the auto shopper ... right now just trying to get used to the system and all that fun :) oh yeah ... right now they are keeping me in the downtown office which is cool with me cause i can carpool with emily on the days she comes into the office ... but anywho ... that is the story for now .. i will be doing ads and helping with the auto shopper ... the real estate and rentals publications ... i think i will like it and the people i work with seem really nice ... but anyway i have to get back to work

well i have been in the AZ now for one month and i have finally landed a job .. well i was working at wild oats but now i have a job dealing with my career ... which maked me vary happy ... i start workin at the arizona republic (www.azcentral.com) on monday ... i will be doing car ads in the deer valley office ... yeah i am so happy ... i recieved the formal office on monday ... which was very exciting ... not to mention the pay was awsome .. plus i can make up to 3500 alone in bonus pay ... a plus .. plus i get free tickets too all sorts of movie premieres and other fun events around town ... i think it will be an awsome place to work for ... not to mention i will be doing ads which i love .... oh yeah happieness is here .. other than that not a whole lot going on ... emily and i have been going out every weekend just trying to meet new friends around town .. everyone in this city is really nice .... it is a great place to start over ... yeah i am a happy girl ... but for now it is time to get some shut eye ... night night :)

... and ten years later ... well i am now living in Phoenix with Emily Miller ... tom. will make it exactly one week since i have been here ... last week i had an interview and took a design test at the Arizona Republic ... it seems like it is a positive ... i am supposed to find out this week if i have a job and where they are going to place me ... it is a 1/2 million circulation newspaper and they have 5 main officies here in phoenix ... so i am still not sure which office i will be located in ... they also talked about placing me in a floater position ... which i think would be awsome because i would get to work in all of the offices and find out wich office i would want to work in ... another plus to getting on at the republic is that they are owned by gannett who also owns the Indianapolis Star so if i ever do decide to move back to IN i would just be able to transfer ... Other than that i have just been hanging out and trying to figure out where things are ... we went out in Tempe and found some cool bars and shot some pool ... good times ... from out apt. we have an awsome view of Camelback Mountain from out balcony ... it is so beautiful ...

hey creasey do...i am back on here for you

Date:	2002-11-07 16:56
Subject:	Dedicated Listeners
Security:	Public
Mood:	touched

So here is something that I definetly felt that I never wanted to forget. Donald and I definetly have some dedicated listenrs. A week ago from Tuesday we had a couple of listeners call in and tell us that they were making french fries and asked us if we wanted any...dono being his starving self of course accepts...mintutes later, nonetheless, we have french fries :) But needless to say that the couple forgot to turn their oven off when they left home and when they got back their house was burt down...much love goes our to those listeners...

So here is something that I definetly felt that I never wanted to forget. Donald and I definetly have some dedicated listenrs. A week ago from Tuesday we had a couple of listeners call in and tell us that they were making french fries and asked us if we wanted any...dono being his starving self of course accepts...mintutes later, nonetheless, we have french fries :) But needless to say that the couple forgot to turn their oven off when they left home and when they got back their house was burt down...much love goes our to those listeners...

So i was walking along the other day and thinking to myself about this whole sept. 11 issue and how much people are dragging it out...at first i question myself... thinking there was something wrong with me bc i don't care about it but then i realized...nah i am ok...but anywho...it seems that we can't get over the whole situation...something that happens to some poeple and has become part of their everyday life we are dwelling on...isn't dwelling on it part of letting the supposed other side win...i don t know this stuff happens get over it and enjoy it while you can...lately i have realized that i wasted a big part of the last few years not quit content in life...in many different ways...i had many beliefs and ideas that I wouldn't even consider that I consider today...I had many friends who weren't really friends...just a simple waste of space in my life...while I have never really liked saying this before in the past it is hard for me to say it now...i like to learn something in every situation which yeah I still have so I guess it hasn't been a complete loss of lifetime space...i think off all of the people i have met in the past and i all of the people I will meet in the future and just by a simple smile or a hello on a bad day could make such an impact...i really don't know where i am going with this than a random rant bc i am bored to death at work and am ready to go home...m

Well I have lost another person in my life...this one I think may have been one of the closest people that have been to me that have died. I haven't none him long but he was one of those people that once you know him you feel like you have known him forever.

His name was Bret. I guess what had happend...Chris went over to his house to help take care of Bret's dieing aunt. Chris is very close to this whole family...well they all even consider him family...I even met them before I met chris's own dad...anywho chris went over and was chating with Bret's aunt and she had asked chris to go and check on Bret bc i guess she had taled to him serveral times that day in his room but he never responded...so Chris went into Bret's room, and Bret was laying on his bed. So chris went up to him and started to shake him to wake him up...and as chris touched him he noticed how stiff Bret was so then chris grabed bret's ankle and it was cold...chris immediatly started crying and yelled for Bret's aunt... when she got in there she told chris to turn bret over and as chris tried to turn him over they came to the conclusion that bret was dead...chris immidiatly went into shokc and i guess just sat there and froze and couldn't take his eyes off of bret...when the paramedics got there they finaly turned bret all the way over...finding that all of his skin had already turned a yello blue color and brets face was resting in a pool of blood on his bed...

at first they thaught that it was a murder...i guess there was someone in th going around murdering a bunch of people...but after the autopsy they found that bret had suffered from a brain anerism...and had died around 12 hours before chris had found him...

Chris and Bret have been friends since the second grade and I can't even imagine the thaught of finding someone I have known that long dead...a best friend, like was just like a brother laying dead...

It took a while for things to set in after chris had told me and it is still hard to imagine...i still feel like bret is going to call me up looking for chris or that we are all still going to meet at jiggs to shoot pool and have drinks...

All of my thaughts of bret are nothing but good...he always had a smile on his face and it seemed a love for everyoone...no matter what he was someone I new that if i needed somehting i could count on...which is alot more than I can say for alot of other people that I call friend...

One thing I do know is that Bret will always be in the hearts and thaughts of everyone that he has ever known or met...while we may never see him in this life, I still feel like he is looking down over us...smileing down on us...that is what chris and I talked about earlier...he will always be with us...

Rest in peace Bret...you will be missed
Sept. 1979 to June 3, 2002

Date:	2002-05-25 15:57
Subject:	hooo hummm
Security:	Public
Mood:	lonely

Oh man...i miss chris... :( ... he went to the detroit electronic music festival... i hope he is ok ... and not around any raver sluts ... i don't know I am kind of glad that he went though ... he has been kind of moody, i think that he needed the break just to get away from here for awhile...

I have been trying to figre out which dead kennedys show I can take him too...i think the one in Cincinnati looks the best...Im not too sure when he is getting back he kind of left short notice...i think he said he was going to leave sometime on sunday...but then i got on the web site and saw that dj t-1000 is spinning on mon...so who knows if he will change is plans

Went out for drinks and pool tonight with adam...it was good times...i needed it and then tommorrow creasy and I are going to go to st loius to go see tub ring...i am looking forward to it, maybe it will get my mind off of missing chris for a bit...

Start work on tuesday...i will be working at the ymca in brazil and of course still at the station...ok well time to go play tetris...i am sooo adicted :D

Date:	2002-05-04 19:10
Subject:	AHHHH
Security:	Public
Mood:	relaxed

Hell yeah...school is finally over...well until June 9, then it is back to school for me :(

I finally got the web page done for iQ ... my first page in HTML ...what a sigh of relief when i finally got it done...if any one wants to check it out just click here iQ

Let's see...what else...chris and i have been together for a month now :) he is soo good to me...spoils me...i never thaught someone who is almost a complete oposite could make me so happy...he has soo much respect for me which makes me so happy, it is really hard to find people that respect anything any more...Last night we went to dinner and i ordered something i didn't like so he traded me...i thaught that was really sweet of him...then we went and watched spiderman...it kicked my ass...it was soo good :)

On thursday night jen, maer, dave, dave and I all went to st. louis to go see the slackers and flogging molly...i needed that show sooo bad...it seriously relieved all of my school stress...it was soo good to see a whole flogging molly show and i cna't wait to see them again...

ok i am off adios

hell yeah i finally got my new mac connected to the net :) yippie

Date:	2002-04-22 12:43
Subject:
Security:	Public
Mood:	tired

Well lets see...where to start...things have been weird lately...i am soo far behind right now in school...but yet soo happy in life...Chris and i are still dating...he makes me really happy...who ever thaught a dirty rave could give me soo much happiness...

this weekend was nice...friday right after class...jen creasy and i headed up to chicago and met up with tubring...they are really nice guys...we spent the weekend with them...well mainly rob...creasy got to get her mac on...while i sat in the corner thinking aobut chris...aww...but it was great...we went to rob's parents after the show on sat. and sat in the hot tub and sipped on some wine...well i didn't...the whole alcohol thing wasn't working out for me this weekend...but it was all good...i ended up falling asleep everywhere we went this weekend...it was a nice break from the haute though...i think that we are going to go back up there the weekend that they play at the fireside bowl...but chris is going to try to come this time :)

after this week things are finally going to slow down...well hopefully...it is no ones fault but my own as far as being so far behind on the glorious school work crap...but oh well that is the story of my life...procrastination...

this weekend is the cook out at my parnets house...should be good times...all of my close friends are coming so that makes me happy...mom is excited about meeting maer, uk dave and jen creasy :)

well time for class...folklore...should be interesting...maybe i won't fall asleep :) yeah that would be nice :)

What is your meaning of life?

Date:	2002-04-15 14:11
Subject:	Ahhh...
Security:	Public
Mood:	sleepy

So this weekend ended up being not all that bad...Friday kicked ass...it was drug out but still good times...went to battle of the bands and covered it for the statesman...then he had a party and it kicked ass...I got alittle confused bc of all the hot boys but i think everything is worked out...hopefully...well Chris hung out and it was sooo good seeing him again, i honestly don't know why I am falling for this boy...but oh well he makes me happy right now and that is really all that i care about...it was cool i hadn't talked to him in about a week...bc i was starting to feel like it was pointless...so he came friday and we got a chance to talk about things...he told me that not seeing me last week made him realize how much he liked me and he asked if he could stay with me on fri. night cause he just wanted to cuddle...it was nice to have someone to just lay in each others arms with...then there was song...who i felt really bad for...i am still wonderig if he is mad at me...but wu jin swears up and down that song is still cool with me...i don' t know...i do know that song is graduateing this year and chances are he is going to move away so i really don't want to get my hopes up with him...then on sat. night Adam and I went to the 4th to see Pristine...it was good times...it always makes me happy to see them...and of course they dedicated "Sneeze" to me...that was much needed at the time and was a gauranteed smile on my face...after the show adam and i went to chris's and hung out there for a bit, then took adam home and Chris came home with me...so we could have more cuddle time...then the next mornign when we woke up it was just cute cause we laid there holding each other making fun of the trashy neighbors accross the street that were yelling at each other...I didn't want to get up for anything yesterday...I had so much shit to do that i didn't want to do...so chris helped gave me a little motivational speech...to get my ass moving...so yeah i finally got that damn research paper done around 7:30 - 8 this morning and got to sleep for a bit...actually i am going to go home now and try to call this prof i need to interview for a story and maybe get a knap in before i go see chris...adios :)

Date:	2002-04-08 01:06
Subject:	!!! WOW !!!
Security:	Public
Mood:	giddy

oh geezzzz...good times...good times.... and all smiles

let's see...i will start with Thursday...well after work a bunch of us went to the Tubring and Fuse show...interesting as always and lots of fun :) Tubring ended up crashing here and drinking lots of beer and grape juice and eating lots of pizza...ummm...we all hung out and had some good times...they all seemed really great...well maybe not Kevin, he has this very strong hate for ska...but me being the nice person that i am can over look this ... hehe...its ok we made sure he got his dose while he was here...

then on Fri. jen and i went to blooming to hang out with everyone...more good times...mmmm...vanilla coke...hehehe...and of course as usual...i think there is something about maer's apt. that makes me sleep..but yeah i of course crashed early in the middle of the floor...mmm oh well makes up for the sleep i didn't get the night before :)

Then on Sat...when i finally wake up...i met UK Dave's rents and went to lunch..they were cool...i hope i get to go to the uk over the summer with maer...i 've always wanted to go :) then when i got back home i called Song...yeah he is hot...and him, wu jin and another guy and i went out for dinner...then a bunch of us went out to celebrate wu jin's "not going home" party...it was good times...i got to spend more time with Song and i think that Adam and Kate really hit it off...i am such a good match maker...then some of Song's friends showed up and i guess that one of his friends is trying to hook him up with this girl and he had plans to do something with them...when he finally told me about this i felt really bad...but he told me that he would rather get to know me better...awww asains are so damn cute...so he was supposed to hang out with us till 11:30 and then go and meet them...but wait it gets better :) ... so Jen creasy, Adam, wu jin and i decided we wanted to go to simerall's for a bit around 12 to meet creasy's brother...he was great...so i kept bugging Song to come with us and he kept saying i want to but i have to go meet my brother...so we went outside to leave and i was taling to Song to ask him if he would follow us there cuase i was trashed and he said yes...so we were getting ready to leave and he was walking away from me and i looked at him and he looked at me...so i put my arms out, so he would get the hint that i wanted a hug...so he turned around and ran toward me and picked me...so i wrapped my legs around his hot body...and as we twirled around in a circle i gave him a kiss on the check then he looked at me and smiles then gave me "our first kiss".... awwww ... cha ching...the first me, keep in mind he is a very shy asain...so we went to Simeralls and when he left i got another kiss...aww he makes me happy...

then today i went to work...then jen, creasy and i all ate dinner together...then jen and i went to watch 40 days and 40 nights...it was cool...it has been forever since i went to the movies but it was fun...now i am going dishes and laundry...fun...well i am off...adios

Date:	2002-04-02 15:26
Subject:	ass and titties
Security:	Public
Mood:	hot

So let's see...yeah...I am at the Statesman and i have had my page done for about 45 min. now and i am waiting for the editor to get up here so i can pull something off of her comp and get the hell outa here....yep yep...that is the extent of my day soo far...but lets talk about happy thaughts...Where to start...

Last wed. the 27 I met Wu Jin's mom...she is a very nice lady who loves the leapord print almost as much as I...not to mention my hair...hehehe... although she didn't speak any english we hit it off well with simply body language...I sear it was ment for me to be Asain...well maybe something will work out someday...Anywhoo she took us all out to Maugers and bought us all a shit load of drinks...plus a few more :) After that we took her back to her hotel and went out to the 4th which is always odd going there now cause I used to be a regular there and now I hardly ever go...oh well...When Suk and I first got there this guy who was a gaint persisted on hitting on us...till (dum dum) my newest Asain infatuation...Song...yeah he is hot and he knows it...he came and saved me from the giant retard...hehehe...so yeah we played mucho mucho pool and had lots of drinks:) mmmm...

....from there comes friday night...it was fun, it was supposed to a bunch of us going out but everyone was being poopy so Adam and I decided to get dressed up and go to out fav. white trash bar...:) he looked all cute...dressed up in a suit and his cute little hat...it was nice of him...everything was going fine till his family showed up...surprisingly his mom actually likes me now...which is cool but his aunt still doesn't...Adam finally told her that he broke up with Heidi...again...so she assumed that me and him were back together again...so she just basically went off on me for all this bull shit that wasn't true...ahhhhh i hate drama...then i started coughing alot and adam could tell the smoke was bothering me so he asked her not to blow her smoke at me...well that made matter worse...she went off on all this shit about how i "lie" all the time to Adam and all this crap...so eventually I just moved over and played "waisting money" games...i wish jen creasy was there with me...those machines always remind me of her :) ...so then i was ready to leave...and Adam being his drunken self thinks that i am pissed at him...so we get into one of our usual drunken fights that we do all the time...which ends as alwyas...me getting pissed and sick of it and just leaving...and him callin gme when i get home apologizing for being a dick...surprise...

Went home sat. and got a hair cut and had a good time with the rents...mom and i went shoping and had a good time and not to mention got some really cute shoes :)

Then on sunday dealt with all of the family drama...Comes down to it that we have basically seperated one side of our family into 2 seperate sides bc my aunt is araging lunatic...yep...that sums it up well... Came back to the huate to go to work...went home...by now i am think wow What a birthday...happy birthday to me...then to my surpirse who shows up at my door...wu jin and song...they stop by to take me out for my birthday...that ment so much to me...I was really starting to feel like shit...so wu jin got on the phone and lined up some friends and i headed up north to pick up Adam and chris...at first Chris wan't going to come...but he couldn't resist the presnece of chelsea :) So we go to BW3s and meet a shit load of people and have a great time...i swear...i love asain...it was fun...and i got trashed..Chris ended up driving my car and we drove adam home and I crashed at Chirs's :) yeah fun..he gave me a much needed biday gift...but we won't get into that :)

So adam, Chris and i went out last night...It was a good time...i was afraid it would be weird at first but it turned out alright...Chris did some and I did some harmless flirting and adam seemed happy that chris and i are hooking up or what ever we are doing...Chris seems great...and very low drama which is 1000 times better :) so tonight...if i ever get out of here...i am going to go watch adam and chirs shoot pool and then Chris and I are supposed to do something together on wed. night...i can't wait :)

ok well this is really too long and if anyone actually reads this that really makes me feel special...so I love you and I am out :)

Date:	2002-03-27 12:34
Subject:	mmmmm
Security:	Public
Mood:	horny

well hello there...let's see ihad a good weekend...other than all of the normal drama with adam...friday jose came up and we all went to b-town and got to see the gang...and i finally got to hang out with maer :) wooo whoo :) last night jen and chuck went with me to go watch adam and chris play pool...adam had already played but i got to watch chris before we left...he is sooo hot...it was cute though bc it seemed like after he would shoot he would look at me to see if i was watching...or maybe i am just obsessed... but the good news is that i think that i am actually going to be able to do something with him...on friday i am supposed to go by his house to do something for my birthday...yeah did i mention he is hot...he asked me why i didn't stop by his house last week...all i could do is blush cause i am a dork....ok on another note...I FINALLY GOT MY NEW IMAC...well mom and dad are supposed to bring in down tonght i am pumped...wooo whooo...yippie...ok i am off time to go to folklore...adios :)

You are the classic yellow squeeky toy.

Find your inner rubber ducky.

hey i just got this from my friend in boston...he went to the nofx show down there and was recording stuff for the station he works out...check this out....

ftp://ftp.aboleo.net/mp3/NOFX-Idiot_Son_of_an_Asshole.mp3


nrg, johnny socko and mu330 show tonight in bloomington...can't wait...eveyrone should go its at rhinos

adios